What am I doing??!?!?!

Ok, here we go! My first official blog! I don't know if this is the best idea I've had, but like most things I attempt, I've given it little bits of thought over a broad period of time, to one day just take the plunge and dive in!
I am a married mother of 3 absolutely gorgeous children who make me want to be a better person everyday. My life is very satisfying, for the most part and I have DEF-in-it-ely come a long way. I am 40 years old, but I think emotionally I am about 28. I have been on a learning journey about my creative dreams for quite some time, with the big push being about the past 13 months, thanks to a friend who gave me a push by starting us in a Creative Cluster.
For most of my life I have been very hard on myself. I rarely looked at myself and could see what I was--only what I wasn't. As a child I wasn't the pretty one, or the athletic one, or the funny one or even the smart one. This was all according to one misinformed expert......me. I always looked at myself -not alone-but against other girls who I measured myself against. This was a very crippling behavior and one in which I still at times find myself reverting back to.
But now, as an adult, with many little successes under my belt, I've made a concerted effort to look at myself in a much different way. I've decided to do this for myself and ultimately for my 3 children--namely my 2 daughters.
I am by trade a kindergarten teacher with a masters degree and 17 years experience. But my new endeavour is to be a writer and live a more satisfying, creative life. I am hardpressed at times to have the time, focus or energy to give this love of mine any effort, but this blog is my starting point.
This blog is not going to always take the same angle and it is not going to be aimed at one audience. If anything, I can be called versitile...or maybe it's just a touch of multiple personality disorder. Depending on what my mood is, issue of the moment, or time in my menstrual cycle, my words and thoughts will vary. I may not always be politically correct or even rational, but my thoughts are always my own and from a place very down deep in my soul. Sof you like to read honest, heartfelt, sometimes snarky or bitchy articles, you may just like my blog.